Fiction

Legacy

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“You have to help me,” she said, “We’re of the same blood.”

Three in the morning and she’d shaken me awake, grinning broadly and asked if I would help her hide a body.

I’d  got used to this since moving into my grandfather’s house.   She came with the territory it seemed.   She was gorgeous, pale and entirely insane.   At the moment she was dressed as a combination Girl Guide and Victorian funeral mute.  Mute.  I should be so lucky.

“The same blood,” I said, “What does that mean?”     I followed her downstairs.  She paused to lick a landscape painting.   Pink cherry blossom vivid and glorious.

“That’s not real,” she said, “Just old oil paints.   And we are.  Kindred.  Kissing cousins”   She looked up impishly, her head on one side.  “Do you want to kiss me, cousin?”

“No,” I said.   “And how can we be… cousins.   You’re in my grandfather’s diary.   A pain in the backside he said.”

“Oh,” she said, “Does that mean you want to..”

“No,” I said as she clarified her question with an indelicate gesture.   “Figure of speech.  Means you’re a nuisance.”

“Oh that,” she said, “Suppose so.   We’re related through his grandfather.   Naughty fellow, Josiah.   Stumbled into mother’s grove and had his wicked way with her.   Took him weeks to get away.   Now help me with this body?”

She’d left it on the floor of the lounge.  Small and ugly, limbs twisted, mouth open, staring eyes fixed on the dusty ceiling.

 “It was him or me.”

It was a ventriloquist dummy.

“Alright,” I said wearily, “I’ll bury it in the garden.”

“Goody,” she said, “face down, with salt in its mouth, or it will come back and haunt me.  You.  Us.  Very bad.”

“Whatever,”

I picked up the little wooden and plastic figure.   A long groaning breath of freed air rasped from its mouth and I felt warm blood sticky and foul on my hands beneath its back.

Face down, I decided, with salt in its mouth.  Oh hell yes.

Thoughts

Making Up Is Hard To Do

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A good friend of mine is having a birthday party later this month and, being of excellent judgement, he has decided to make it a costume party. The theme is movie characters and, since I went as one of my favourite masked psychopaths (V from V for Vendetta) to his last party I decided to be TOTALLY ORIGINAL this time and go as a different one of my favourite masked psychopaths- to whit Erik, the eponymous fellow from The Phantom of the Opera

Which of course means I need to go completely overboard and learn how to create suitably grim make up for the required disfigurement.

So far I’ve tried a few different looks more or less so I can figure out how the various makeup techniques work (being s complete novice).

Pictures follow, and I think I have now had an idea that should work as a concept- I’m going to try for a partially exposed skull with ragged edges of skin around it. Once I’ve tried it out I will share it here.

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Poetry

The Blackrow Ballads – songs from a mistaken pilgrimage

From the Preface:

This is the secret no one Dare discuss:
The final voice that sings and calls to Dust
All who are called upon to Dance upon the day
That foolish piper blows the Dream away.

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The Tryst

All fondly I recall the day
The sun shone down, a gentle kiss,
Your endless gentle courtly way,
I smile in memory of bliss
And touch the wood of Tyburn Tree

How many lovers parted there?
How many oaths of love were sworn
How many smiled, or shed a tear,
Or laughed, or cried, with joy forlorn
Beneath the shade of Tyburn Tree?

The shade beneath the tree was cool
My eyes met yours as souls we shared,
Your will o’er mine did ever rule
My heart since first our lives were paired.
E’en now beneath the Tyburn Tree. 

Songs we heard sung, and laughter pealed
When by that tree your hand sought mine,
That gentle touch, a compact sealed
You knew and know, my heart is thine,
Not only there, by Tyburn Tree

I feel your touch, I hear your voice
I close my eyes I see your face,
Then gone, all gone. You made your choice,
And now I pass that empty place
There grows no fruit on Tyburn Tree


A Purse Full of Pennies

Who woke the man who rose that day
And stretched and yawned and went to slay
A thousand dreams he never knew?
Who woke that man? Oh was it you?
Who paid the man who walked the street
And never knew the dry defeat
Of words unsaid, of stories slain,
Who never knew or cared for pain?
Who paid that man who took that stroll,
Who stitched the leather to his sole?
Who kissed that man with stainless hand
And never sought to understand?
I’ll never know, I’ll never tell
Who paid that man who tolled the bell.

Songbirds

Find a little
spend a little
Waste a little 
Time

Sewing little songbirds
on a washing line

Watch a little
Wait a little
Sigh a little
More

No more noisy songbirds
singing by the shore.

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One Thousand Sea Shells

Here’s a thousand sea shells
lined up on the shore
Nicely spaced and shined up well
Like the thousand gone before
Each a heart and each a soul
Each a number and a name
Each a whisper of the whole
Waiting for a tide of flame



The Gardener’s Son

Would you dare to grow a flower
In the soil your father wasted
Boots trod down an idle hour
Crushed the grapes of wine untasted?

I have seen the flowers shining
Colours that he never knew,
Never knew and died maligning
I have seen them. Friend, have you?



Dust Drawn

There’s a fellow who is watching
Though he doesn’t really know
If the plans that he is hatching
Are to stay or are to go
And the woman in her sorrow
Lays a blanket on the bed
Dreams a dream of lost tomorrow
And she soothes a weary head

In the steeple, no-one’s waiting
And the bells are long since sold
For the powers are creating
Bombs and bullets for the bold
Sing a song and catch a comet
But a chance is all they need,
Hope’s a prison, lead them from it
In the silence of the freed

There’s a tree in Tyburn’s acre
Where fine leaves have never grown
And the laughter of its maker
Has a music all its own
There he dreams of dancing mornings
And though not a word is said
You can hear ten thousand warnings
In the silence of the dead.

For the woman, no more crying
For the time has long since fled
To be spent in fruitless sighing
Over words too long unsaid.
In the Tree’s relentless glory
She has learned her role at last;
In the service of his story
There she heals the shattered past.

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Twenty One and One

Lay them down, my merry girl,
Lay them down and say,
Speak me fair, my merry girl
What awaits me there?

Don’t be shy, my merry girl,
Don’t be shy today,
Tell me plain my merry girl,
Be it foul or fair.

I’m not scared, my merry girl,
I’m not scared, I pray,
What is there, my merry girl,
Hope or black despair?

I see a road for you, my lord,
I see a road so long,
You walk it on your own, my lord
Always on your own.

The path is wicked hard, my lord,
The path will lead you wrong,
Winding, dark and grim, my lord,
False and overgrown.

But don’t turn back in fear, my lord,
But don’t turn back, be strong,
The stars above shine love, my lord,
You are not alone.

Marionettes

For a lifetime by the tower stands a boy without a name
Waiting for the bell to ring and wake the day
And though the wind is biting cold, the puppets who’ve been bought and sold
Just stand and stare in silence through the shame.
As he waits and watches empty for the songless show to start
He thinks of voices stilled and tales untold
And through the night he heard the chimes of melted bells a thousand times
And tightly locked the box that held his heart.
For his tears were just illusion and his dreams were just a lie
And the voice that led him there was dead and gone
And his feet were torn and tattered, and the whole damn world was shattered
For a puppet show beneath a throneless sky.

Firewalking

The destination’s not in sight, but still you carry on
Though every step’s a blazing trial and all your hope is gone,
You can’t go back, you must go on, your home is far behind,
As fiery pain tears through your sole, and drives far from your mind
All thoughts of peace, all thoughts of calm, all hope of better days
So long ago, so far away from Firewalking ways

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Westward

On the seashore by the water looking at horizon far
There’s no song and there’s no music
Nowhere that the singers are

Once they stood there, once they played there, once they dreamed of life and love
Then the storm and then the fire
Arid empty sky above

No more songbirds, no more puppets, no more bells to chime the hour
Only sand and only water
Silent church and empty tower

Long the road, and far the journey, back to where they ought to be
Empty rooms and barren paper
In the shade of Tyburn Tree



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Fiction

Clear Path Forward

Often she dreamed of towers and dragonback flying and strong hands holding hers, of golden rings blazing with power and of long tracks in the wilderness that led, finally, to nowhere at all.

At precisely 06:15 the screen in her apartment blared out its alarm and dragged her upright and attentive while she was still not yet awake.   Stretching and calisthenics until 06:30 and then a breakfast of souring milk and tasteless Libertyflakes before the long walk to work.  Her bicycle, requisitioned a month ago and, melted down, was helping to secure victory against the relentless inhuman enemies of her freedom to obey and work herself to death.

She didn’t think that thought.

Between 08:58 and 13:01 she sat at a desk with a shiny plastic table whose top didn’t quite look like wood.   Documents arrived on her left and she corrected them using a combination of voice recognition software which didn’t work and a grubby grey keyboard that mostly did. 


She dreamed often of a world of glorious cold dawns and sisters with corngold hair, of incantations and dancing barefoot in forbidden places, and of a lover as wild as drunken lightning and  as gentle as summer waking.   She dreamed of a kiss on her lips, and of wearing the necklace he’d given her, a fallen star sheathed in whispergold.

Between 13:05 and 13:25 she ate with the others in ordered rows.  Noodles and soya cubes and the news broadcast at full volume gleeful with imminent victory and sombre reminders that the enemy could strike at any time and hated hated hated the luxuries and freedom that were so commonplace here.   The noodles were undercooked and crunchy.

Between 13:29 and 17:32 she sat at her desk correcting errors and omissions.  She excised a photograph of a dead eyed man from a ministry bulletin from a year ago, it had been placed there in error.  The man had never worked there, though she was sure she’d seen him just once on the day she’d first been shown her desk.   Another error corrected.


She dreamed some nights of a long trail in the wilderness, through grass, that led nowhere.   She’d held the hand of the man who was her wildfire and told him that if she fell in battle she’d want to be buried beyond that horizon, with his necklace on her cold breast.   He’d smiled and said she would never die for he was a king, and he would never allow it.

At 17:36 she began the walk home, with all the others.   The bulletin had promised sunshine and clear weather for the evening commute.   Someone fell into step next to her, took her hand.   This didn’t happen.     He was lean and grim and she did not know him.

“Let go of me,”

“Don’t think I haven’t tried,” his accent was Scottish, his voice insistent, “I need your help”

“What?”

“You need to show me where to dig,”

It was about quarter to six and raining gently.

Gaming

September Round Up- RPGS and RTCs

I haven’t posted for a while so here’s a quick round up of what’s been going on in the world of Finn

RPG Stuff
We’ve finished the most recent story arc of Rogier’s epic D&D campaign with my stoic old veteran Alaric Helm and his stalwart companion Lia the half elf misanthropist/ranger (a non standard dual class) defending the border realms of men from a goblin invasion.   We’ll be returning there soon after a spell of me running Blades in the Dark for them – a more supernaturally focussed visit to Doskvol as their characters are a Whisper/Leech team faking seances and selling magically infused dream potions to the wealthy and decadent.
My other Blades in the Dark campaign is less esoterically focussed with the HellRunner Corp of smugglers dividing their time between hunting down a serial killer in Crowsfoot (now revealed to be an Iruvian diplomat who is being shipped out of the city by his superiors) and getting involved with the machinations of the dreaded Izing Consortium a shadowy group of businessmen who seem to be trying to start a new war in order to boost their profitability.
In my Knight City cyberpunk homebrew the former corporate action team DSI-9 are coming to terms with a world on the brink of collapse, with their corporate employers struck down and implicated in the deliberate release of a bio-weapon that has turned Manhattan into a nest of crazed feral lunatics.    They’re currently trying to work with the insane biochemist who created the plague in the first place who is dangling a genetic kill-switch for them IF they indulge his every whim.   They’ve just smuggled a live victim of the plague through quarantine in the hope this will help in developing the cure.
Back in the lands of the Sundered Seven (another homebrew, this time classic Swords & Sorcery), our heroes have assisted in the defeat of the treacherous Lord Osten of Tyaldi and mopped up the supernatural incursion into his stronghold with the aid of some Carcosan influences.   They’re now in the great city of Hrafburg hunting down the paymasters of Osten who seek to bring civil war to the land.
I’ve also been doing some research so that I can fill out the handouts for a Cthulhu Dark one off that I’ll be running and I’m so far down the rabbit hole of esoteric elliptony that I’m starting to wonder if it’s all real after all.

RTC Stuff
For those unfamiliar with the term, an RTC is a Road Traffic Collision – formerly called an RTA (Road Traffic Accident – they changed the term because it implied accidental cause).  My car was struck by an out of control driver at the end of August and totalled between two impacts from the other driver and the steel roadside barriers.  I was knocked out (briefly) and pretty battered but walked away.

My Lovely Car – now an expensive paperweight

I had my first bout of physiotherapy yesterday and it went well.   I’m still stiff and aching particularly in my back & right shoulder but got off pretty lightly. 

Writing Stuff
Finishing Chapter Ten of Crow Journal took a while.   It had the potential to be exposition heavy but after a few attempts at it I’ve managed to wrestle it into shape and conveyed – I hope – the information that needs to be conveyed in a way that isn’t too heavy handed and mixed in with some incident and character development that means it works.  Again, I hope so.    Crow Journal should be about 15 chapters in total so I’m in the home stretch now.
And of course A Step Beyond Context remains on sale – If you haven’t as yet read it but think you might be interested in a multi-world Cyberpunk thriller with a Regency drama heroine then you can pick it up at Amazon in paperback or Kindle format.

Poetry

History May Not Repeat, But Often Rhymes

Those old men in their towers, rich in gold and oil and powers  
Will never cry ‘enough, I’m satisfied’
And they send out their town criers, and their skilful journaliars
And they cast their spell so trusted and so tried

See the other, over there? What they’re doing is unfair
And their ways are wrong and evil and obscene
We must fear them and must hate them, and completely decimate them
For while they live the world is never clean

So they’ll march boys off to war as they’ve marched them off before
And they beat the drums of falsehood and of shame
And if judgement’s to be had between what’s good and bad
then first you need to ask the killer’s name